0 – The Fool

Had a fortune teller offer me all the answers to my burning questions, I wouldn't know what to ask.

Admittedly, I am the type of person who needs to know how things will play out — whether in regards to a book, a movie, a television series, what have you.

In those terms, I like knowing what to expect. It's not the end result I'm truly concerned with; it's how the journey arrives at its destination that intrigues me the most — the vast difference, the tremendous amount of growth that took place between Point A and Point Z.

As much as I'd like to say the same reasoning applies to my outlook on my life, I truly can't.

I can honestly say that I don't really care how my life will end up—what I'll be doing, who I'll be with, where I'll be.

For one, I don't want to look at my life in terms of a timeline and measure out an end point, a finite moment in my life where I can breathe a sigh of relief knowing I've reached my goal and there is nothing left to do anymore.

It's my mission in life to constantly achieve personal growth, to constantly be motivated by the urge to learn and grow and make myself better.

Setting expectations and striving to meet them to me is like setting a limitation. Once I've met that goal, then what?

Which explains why I like leaving things vague and open-ended—it leaves plenty of room for possibility, for unforeseen events that can throw my plan off course and set me on a new direction, a new opportunity for personal growth.

Sure, it makes life a lot more difficult to measure in terms of success and achievements, but from where am I really basing these units of measurement in the first place?

I've only learned that to compare other people's personal successes and achievements to my own will only lead me to disappointment until I force myself to realize that we are two different people with two different goals, two different mindsets, two different sets of priorities—so why even bother comparing the two?

It's like apples to oranges—there is no common denominator, therefore the comparison is invalid, inappropriate.

Also, I don't care how my life ends up because it really doesn't matter all that much to me.

Granted, I do have a few base requirements:
- I have a job I am absolutely passionate about that makes me want to get out of bed in the morning for
- I have a loving partner who supports and challenges me, and I the same to him
- I have children who I cherish and can teach the lessons I've learned and help spread goodwill
- I live day to day with no regrets in full pursuit of my own happiness

I admit that these requirements are pretty lofty and pretty challenging to measure up to, but at least it gives me something to strive for, something to go after with every day of my life.

And that's all I pretty much need.

Everything else, I've learned to accept as they come to me.

I look forward to meeting what life has to offer me head-on, as they come to me.

I can't allow myself to sit and wait for my fortune to come to fruition.

I'm just putting blind faith into my Fate that everything I ask for will come to me in due time, and everything else will just fall into place.